So lets fast forward a couple of years to our second JDRF Walk for a Cure.  For those of you that don't know, it is where we raise money and walk.  All proceeds go to JDRF and it is a great day that is the one day of the year that it is cool to have diabetes.  Anyway, I was trying to decide what a good team name would be.  We just walked with her name the first year.  In 2008 while I was looking for a team name Destiny was sitting by me and just chit chatting.  She said that she couldn't wait until she got older so she didn't have to have diabetes any more.  My heart sank.  I explained to her that she would never grow out of it, that she would live with it for the rest of her life.  She looked so sad and said, "Yeah, I know mom, it was just my dream."  So that is how our team name of Destiny's Dream was born.

So far this blog has been kindof sad.  I am just laying the foundation for what life is like in our house.  I went through a terrible time in my life and I wasn't sure how I was going to get out.  In July of 2007 I lost my friend to breast cancer.  In August 2007 I lost my sister in a car accident.  I never recovered from that and only a few months later in May 2008 is when Destiny was diagnosed.  My life was falling apart.  A month later my oldest daughter began having seizures.  I will admit that I blamed God.  How could HE do this to me???  How could HE do this to my children???  Several people tried telling me I needed to ask for his forgiveness.  Several people tried telling me he wouldn't give me more than I could handle.  I call BS on both of those.  Years later I finally get it.  I turned my back on God but he never left my side.  He understood the pain I was in and walked by my side waiting for me to allow him back in.  He did not do this to me or my children.  Life did this to us.  And that's ok.  As angry as I was at first I finally came to a realization a couple weeks ago that I would like to share....

I had someone tell me that a person I thought I was close to told them that my life was terrible and that they are thankful they don't have my life.  I believe they were trying to show sympathy.  However, I was very offended.  Let me tell you why.  Four years ago I would have said I had the worst life and that I couldn't do it and all that jazz.  Now, I have an 8 year old Type 1 diabetic child that also suffers from severe epilepsy, she has kidney problems, still has accidents in her pants, has eye problems, kidney reflux and aspergers.  And I have the best life ever.  She has taught me so many things.  Here are just a few.

1. Life is precious.  Enjoy it while you can.
2. Say what you mean because its very confusing to guess what someone is trying to tell you.
3. Compassion.
4. Life is fun.  You just have to look at it from a childs point of view.
5. Compassion.
6. Life is simple, it is adults that make it complicated.
7. Compassion.
8. Life does not revolve around me...I know, hard to believe.

This is just a few and I will add more when I think of them.  But as you can see, my life is not terrible.  I have an amazing life with a child who is funny and innocent and enjoys the small things in life.  I am just sad that not everyone in the world could spend 10 minutes in my shoes.  Then they would realize that my life is NOT terrible, it is actually pretty AMAZING!!